Richard
Simmons.
'Sweatin'
to the Oldies'1, 2, 3, and 4? I could see how dancing 50's style might be fun once or twice.
'Sweatin'
to the Oldies' Disco? You're kidding me right?
And
then there is this gem which is kind of amazing:
I'm
going to get really personal with you here, so please bear in mind that you may
or may not identify with it.
Weight.
I am fat-yes, fat. There, I said it.
I've been on the heavy side most of my life. You can call it voluptuous, curvy, large, big girl, or whatever but it doesn't hide the truth. I am fat. I accept that.
I've had a life-long love affair with food and have slowly gained weight over the years, along with attempting several diets from the well-known to a couple of controversial ones. You
know what happened next: lose 10 and gain 13, lose 5 and gain 8, and so on.
My
doc once joked that I was the healthiest fat person he's ever seen, at least on
the inside. I have excellent blood
sugar, low blood pressure, and my cholesterol is under 200. The outside is not doing so well; my joints are going, my back has developed issues, I have serious mobility issues, and I have sleep apnea. (I call my bi-pap machine my ball and chain).
Add
to the mix that according to an endocrinologist Mariah, I, and probably Lynn carry the MC4receptor gene aka the "fat" gene.
There is no treatment or cure, just harder work for us ahead. It doesn't excuse
anything, but does give me the "so that's why" that explains so much. A genetic predisposition for obesity. Who
knew?
Back
to Richard Simmons.
I never made fun of him per se, but I am guilty of chuckling at his oddness-which I posses in spades-and giggling at the people whooping and cheering with him.
I never made fun of him per se, but I am guilty of chuckling at his oddness-which I posses in spades-and giggling at the people whooping and cheering with him.
I
decided it's time to really look at a sensible way to start getting in shape.
YouTube has my old workout but I'm not in any condition to attempt it. 'Sweatin' to the Oldies' kept popping up in my
searches and I decided to watch a video. I paid close attention, watching what they did
and how the really obese people moving.
The
music wasn't that terrible. Disco was a part of my growing up so I can deal;
after all I'm sequestered in my living room so no one will see me. It looked simple enough and I decided to try
it today. No big deal. I got the laptop
hooked up to the TV and started the workout.
Thirty
seconds in...
I
will never make fun of Richard Simmons again. Ever.
I only
made it through a third of the workout. I really tried. I ended up jumping to
the cool down. And the toning work? We
just won't go there except to say that I managed to get through most of it, making
major adjustments.
I'm still very proud of myself.
I also have a greater respect for a man who cared enough about the morbidly obese to
create a special workout just for them. It's not about heartbeats per minute or
resting rate. It's about sweating. And I did. ( I know, gross.)
Kaley
poked her head out from her cave a couple of times and encourage me to keep
going. I really appreciated that. She has watched me struggle and knows how
much I want to improve my health. I know
I will be sore as heck this evening, but I want to try again tomorrow-I'm
determined to do more.
Did
you know he's created special workouts
for the physically challenged? Pretty
cool.
I've
fought to get out of that poisonous mindset that you have to lose xx pounds
quickly. I struggle with the fact that losing
1-2 pounds a week is the best way for me to do it.
I've had some success but am ready to do more. I've always loved a challenge....
To
be honest I'm not sure how much I want to share as I tackle this, but I will
probably toss a snippet or two in there now and then. I want to be clear: I DON'T want to be skinny; I want to be healthy.
For
some reason, I felt I was supposed to share this today.
Wish
me luck!
Until
next time,
Robyn
:)
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