The Ups and Downs of a Girl in Nutritional Crisis: Part One.

Translation?

This getting healthy thing is proving more difficult than I'd planned on, but I'm not giving up; rather I've dug my heels in and am prepared to fight for my life-morbid obesity is a disease in itself, being in both body and mind.

This is going to be one of those more brutally honest posts-I'd warned you about that, lol.


Fed up and tired of being fat, I had to weigh (pun intended) my options.

1. Have some kind of surgery
2. Try and find a medically supervised diet that my insurance will cover
3. Do the Sacred Heart Diet (you know the cabbage soup one)
4 Juicing/Smoothies

Well, I'm terrified of any of the surgeries, my insurance doesn't cover any of the medically supervised plans, and I've had success in the past with the Sacred Heart Diet and am just learning about doing the juice/smoothies.


I plan to get moving but when I do move I hurt and have to take pain medication which keeps me from moving...and so on.

What follows are my personal posts from the Facebook Group I created to have a small community of like minded people to share recipes, encouragement, etc.

Some of you may relate. Some of you might shake your head. Some of you might totally get it.

It really doesn't matter, I just ask you that after reading this blog entry that you take an extra second or two to look beyond the girth of the next large person you see.

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I made my first smoothie today using some carb count yogurt, frozen blueberries, water and some V8 natural splash. (It's what I had on hand). It tasted pretty great and Mariah had most of it. I'm getting pretty excited about this!

January 24 

January 25

Today's assignment is to watch Fat, Sick, and Nearly Dead. Thank you Netflix. 

I've set a simple first goal. I want to be able to walk to my mail box and back twice at a steady pace without being winded. (it's across the parking lot from my apt). It's very humbling for me to admit.

January 27

Okay I had an amazing experience today. As you know my friend gave me a Magic Bullet so I could make smoothies. I was really interested in checking out some juicing as well. A page member read my post over on the BNP site and pm'd me privately asking if I would like a dedicated juicer! I met with her and brought it home and made some juice right away. I LOVED it. Another step on my journey!

February 1

Today was an interesting day-first day out in a long time that kept me away from home for most of the day. Went in to Spokane and my older daughter wanted to take her friends to Dick's Hamburgers. Anyone-well almost anyone who has been there knows it's greasy crack in all its glory.

I got a smaller version of what I regularly get, still allowing a splurge and.
I had to stop eating it. It was way to greasy and I didn't feel so hot after I finished what I did eat. McDonald's makes me feel this way too, most of the time. So I mourned the loss of my Whammy, large fry, and six tartar sauces.
I'm attributing it to the new changes healing my body even more. While it's kind of a bummer, it's also really cool! I must be doing something right!

February 2

Had to rethink my first baby-step goal: My garbage dumpster is pretty much across the street (out my door and about 30 yds away). ( also half the distance to my mail box). I walked over and back at a steady pace and was surprised that I was winded. I'm revising my first goal to be two trips to the dumpster and back with the next goal to be the mail box and back. Mariah is my cheerleader and is rooting me on

February 10

With all the crap happening today my stress level hit infinity. I caved and ordered pizza, BUT to help my appetite before it gets here I drank a big glass of my thicker green veggie juice. Going to have Mariah drink one as well. Then we can enjoy without over stuffing. smile emoticon

February 13

This morning I find myself at odds with life, lol. I had all these glorious plans for juicing and smoothies and all would be wonderful and any extra things I needed would fall from the sky, lol. Things don't often work out that way. frown emoticon So as much as I wanted to do a 100% completely healthy food lifestyle that's just not going to be possible-reality kicked in, lol. What it means is that I'm going to revamp things so we can still work toward health while dealing with typical food items. I'm good for this month and have a bit extra but I won't be able to afford to keep doing it. I'm not giving up though, I just need to make some adjustments to my plans.‪#‎determination‬

February 14

Nutrition fail this morning. On one hand I feel like a sneak kid that got away with something. On the other I'm disgusted. Let's just say a giant Reese's valentine heart was involved...

February 21

Happy Saturday! Lots of chaos in the air these days with bad things happening to so many people I know. What's your 'go to' strategy for dealing with stress eating? the carbs enthusiastically jump up and down yelling 'Pick me! Pick me!' while the fats purr seductively to lure me in. Not going to the store today because I'm afraid one or the other will win.

     

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Thus concludes part one.  Part two will post in a day or so. Unless I get distracted.